saRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH >=]

2011-12-27T01:59:00.002+11:00

So it's been a while since I've last been here.

With SOO much time, I should blog.

UPDATE-

Hopefully not only did my hair colour change, but so would my brain capacity and English grammar slightly increase.

I've written so much about the phillipines mission trip in my journal i won't be writing anymore.

Singapore-

Been about 12 days here and IM DYIN OF BORDERMMM SHOOT MEE

On the other hand, I guess it's good, alotta chilled times and bonding happening.

For the first few days I bummed around at my granny and then moved over to my aunts place.
Only to find out that my aunt is flying over and my uncle is going to be away as well.

-So, my cousin, lucky, and I enjoyed the free house to ourselves :)

- Jeremy took me to all these romantic scenes at singapore, it was amaazzing.
He still till 4am for me, what a bub!

-Going for kbox and drinks at pub called BoBo. pretty ironic. twas fun :)

- Going for christmas dinner with Chris
and having his mother talk about how bad Australia is, how education is too relaxed and because of this children bash one another and do graffiti, etc etc. If she stayed on longer, she would have been on today tonight

-I moved from the east to the west so many times its crazy.

missing everyone in melbourne
missing everyone in phillipines
missing my car.

the internet here is sooo slowwwww
peaace outt

2011-11-21T21:02:00.000+11:00

2011-11-11T11:57:00.005+11:00

3 more weeks before i flyyy, kinda dont really want to go,
but i think i need this, this is good

After all the planing and talking
decided not to go to the club nxt week,
that everryonnnes going to
tryna save,
tryna stand my ground,
tryna change,
tryna be someone
but still feels shit
HIT THE GYM

one step at a time eyyyyyy

Dreams, thats where i have to go
Ps: must be the prayers, cause i havent had a car problem in weeks, so thank you!

2011-11-08T22:27:00.012+11:00

Two letters came out of my keyboard today. JK

seriously the letters J and K

2011-11-06T18:30:00.003+11:00

i love coffee dates =]

i tried.i failed so i dont care anymore
so im out of facebook,dont care about the guy that forgot about me.

hunan's love cannot compare to god's love.

2011-10-19T23:45:00.002+11:00

LAST WEEK OF UNIIII :D :D

YAYYYA

gym and tan prep for summer :)

and i can so shoot u right now. no i wanna shoot u bring u back to life then shoot u down again >=[ scheming the evil.

2011-09-29T16:38:00.001+10:00

back from sydney baby :D

3 hours waiting the airport cause gay airport shut down

20 minutes of pain like it felt like it was bleeding from the inside, so werid i never get this,

man it felt like the longest plane ride, coz i was tired but i couldnt sleep

felt good to get away, then im back again, damn u brain

mei chin came and go,

ying's leaving 2morow,

ah yee's leaving 2morow,

my aunty leaving 2morow,

sabrina's leaving 2morow

when my grandma and grandpa leaves, the house is gonna go chaos

2011-09-22T01:20:00.002+10:00

IM SO STUFFED friday is technically 2morow and Ive havent finish that 3 assignments,
FMLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

theres that letter
theres the speech
theres sydney
theres booking the flights
theres graduation
theres aunt coming, no coking in the house nymore
then theres him
theres pictures, theres sms-es, theres facebook,

my heart is beating so fast its hurting, forget to breathe sometimes

but im healthy and thats good :)

2011-09-19T17:14:00.004+10:00

Blogger is failing me, for some reason the layout gone spazo and ran all the way to the bottom, also it is failing me literally.

GGEE GEE GEE 3 assignment due friday

Havent drank in 2 weeks,

Havent been partying in 2 months

I feel the sense of empty -ness

But it feels good? achievement kinda? i think..

2011-09-15T09:40:00.003+10:00

Back in the same situation again, assignment due tommorow. 0% progress
wassup with me I just cant concentrate... >=[

tuned into breakeven- the script
while I'm wide awake he's no trouble sleeping
cos when a heart breaks no it dont breakeve... even..no
What am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am i supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
cos he's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it dont breakeven

Now I'm tryn'a make sense of what little remains..

hate songs that carries memories

2011-09-12T22:42:00.002+10:00

so I spilled water in my bag last week and half my work got soaked, and after airing them out, cleaning the bag, I spilled it again yesterday. My 2011 organiser K.Oed, so now I must remember stuff now..

September updates-

18th- Hearts for Harmony uni
19th- blood donation
20th- M.C comes from brisby
21- Audrey's 21st =o
- Grandrents and aunty comes :)
23- Angie's bday
-Ying's bday
24- Audrey's 21st celebration
25- go karting then ying's 24th celebration
26- Sydney trip
28- cousin serena comes
29- Simeones 19th celebration
30th- ying leaves to sing, journey to constantly attempt to quit 

Dilema about deleteing his messages, still i couldnt.. i want to but i can't

>this silly sms cycle goes
me read them, then feel shit. omg i h8 me
me read them, feel shitter, omg i did it again
Dilema about going back and changing things
miss you come back pls?
Dilema about looking desperate
Sighface

Feels like i havent slept in days. Silence is once again too loud.

I've finish 20 decks in 2 months, ffmmmlll disapointed at myself once again..=[ So i have officially decided to entirely quit before the mission trip.
Hence, imma have to find something else to distract me from it. Hmm 

Honestly I always thought that I'll die young, now I'm turning 19. =0

?up make and sorry say i can ,over it's belive cant still I

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2011-09-02T11:12:00.002+10:00

This week had been spent spent wisefully :) other than tuesday
for once i didnt feel like i wasted the day by sleeping

wednesday, i had placement all day till 4 soo tetris and slept at 10

thursday morning went to uni then went to work right after
after work, went for catch up sesh with the grannies

friday, got to uni 1 hour late for the lecture, but i got the attendance roll,
4 hours break, and im doing work :D kinda, well im not sleeping soo

no time wasted (Y) win

____

soo im tryna keep busy, but occupying with godly things on a friday, sat, sunday, trying this road

2011-08-30T16:06:00.002+10:00

So I wagged a 100% attendance tutorial and a lecture yesterday specifically to do my 40% worth assignment paper.
But i ended up lazying at home, till 7 then, I decided to go badminton ==
so disappointed with my lack of effort. sigh sigh
After collaborating with my awsume cousin, we tag team and conquered the paper till 3am today :)
worse feeling to drive all the way from clayton till donvale at 3am,alone,.. but i got home in 15 mins lolol =]

Anywho feeling dead in the tutorial, after driving for what supposedly to be 10 minutes became 1hour to AAMI at vermont, i came home crashed bed, and i just woke up to realise that i didnt hand in the paper

EFFFFFF
EEMMMMMMM
EEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLL

>=[ >=[ >=[

2011-08-22T21:46:00.005+10:00

SO I mission trip IM PUMPED :D
Ive already applied for part time jobs and did my resume soo. hoping that ill find a job, to pay the flight there, cause my mum wont hire me D=
If i do get the job, ill most probably disappear from here, sooo i didnt die just busy

The radio's been talkin to me, reminding me of the blood donating and all,
then i saw Kiwi who inspired me to go.
I think its a sign, hence ive decided to be a regular donor :)
the feeling of being useful feels awsume

I still cant believe it happened. reading my old blog post and it
feels shit, feels like i drove down a hill but still breathing.
all that happy thoughts, memories, all to end up to today
I wished someone would have punched me in the face kick me in the guts, spat at me, smashed me with a pole just for us to break up and told me it wouldnt work

.. wondering why we bother with love if it never last

feeling ugly

2011-08-14T20:23:00.001+10:00

suddenly i noticed, I'm feeling like a gambler who went out, smiled but lost everything

Easy...goin' out on a Friday night
Easy...every time I see him out I can smile,
live it up the way a single girl does
But what he, what he don't know
Is how hard it is to make it look so Easy
Easy- Rascal Flatts, ft Natasha

2011-08-09T21:19:00.003+10:00

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Love is like a cycle
When you Love, you get hurt,

When you get hurt, you hate
When you hate, you try to forget,
When you try to forget, you start missing,
and when you start missing..
you'll love again.

you and tequlia make me crazy
run like poison in my blood

2011-08-03T13:17:00.003+10:00

A series of fortunate events, continued..

SO, to continue my driving experience, last week,
when i was driving to limelight, this police car overtook serveral cars to be behind my car,
I told my cousin he was flashing me, so i slowed down and continued driving, only to realise that he wanted me to stop at the side after he turned on his siren.
Looking dodgy in my hoodie, he came out and asked details.
Whilst having a lil panicking sesh,
a
POL: how long have you had your liscence for?
Me: 2 weeks ago=/
POL: i can tell.. so you know how many demerate points you have
Me: urmm no, 10?
POL: 6! Do you know i can fine and take away 2 demerate points from you?
ME: D= face
POL: YES thats the look i want to see from you. *walks away
ME: THANK YOUUUU
ME: omg this did not just happen, then again its me
CUZ: =o I wonder whats going to happen next week

on the other hand, my mum who drove past a yellow light at the same area.
POL: Do you know i can take away demerate points from you?
MUM: Im soo sorry, im soo sorry

but she got fined and deducted point
HAHHA i mean =[
like mum like daughter :)

Anywho, no school todays, and my lil 3 year old cousin is here, that lil baby from long time ago
But then, I wont have the car for four days. *sigh face

2011-07-27T14:32:00.003+10:00

I GOT MY PEEEEEEEESSSSS :D

I cannot believe my driving journey is happening so quick,
like that day i drove with a flat tyre to franny's house, and caught it steaming.
and had the nicest guy to change it for me.
or the day i came back from Nick's birthday and drove back on the opposite direction of doncaster park and ride.
and only realised it when i saw the other side of the road driving at the same direction as me, i quickly reversed to feel the bump on my boot.
or even the day i got fined for parking at a disabeled slot.

Been having all these horrific nightmares of me driving,
i cant even deal with the guilt i have now, so I dunno what ill do if i had to deal with that kind of guilt,
so I pray to god everyday that if was to be in an accident, he would take my life not anyone else.
Please pray that prayer for me too =s

So theres me driving everyday since i passed,
theres uni
and theres my lil cousins coming next week
theres ying graduating this year
theres my aunt and uncle coming end of this year
and
theres my grandparents coming end of this year. yayy
then theres the holiday trip with my dad, bro and sis. awwks palm tree ==

downloaded a list of old school road trip music

Reminscing about my childhood memories with my grandparents.
and how i use to hate being left there while my parents went to work,
how my grandma would force me to eat her bowl of food.
Really got to chat to my grandma last year when i went back,
got to find out how angelic my mum was when she was younger. funn times
And before leaving i think my grandpa was shocked and shed a tear when i huged him b4 leaving. haha
never had to worry about how old they are because they're still young, and strong people, WIN
come already DUDDS

even thou my memory already suck,
no matter how much i try, i cant seem to forget our memories,
omg shoot me now, emo

blog UPDATED =]

2011-07-13T01:01:00.002+10:00

drained from work
ying is over for a month, after being so used to her, its gonna b so depressing to see her leave for singapore.
gay week,
not including tiny injuries, and dropping things, ive got bruised knees, cut back, cut thumb and annoying bruise on a vein.
found out my results
fatting
soo not my week.

Guess you thought that i would put it all behind me
but it seems there's always something there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or something on the t.v
Boy it aint easy when i hear out song
i get that same old feeling
wish i could press rewind
turn back the hands of time

2011-06-23T13:16:00.003+10:00

never felt so afraid in my entire life
sitting with an L learner who asks me (someone who failed her p's) to park her car outside pancake parlour D=

then sitting in the car to with her to maccas, like we're go karting down this hill, tryin to overtake this friend blocking our car. omg omg omg

THEN as she gets out of the car, she forgets to put park and pull the handbrake, as she comes out leaving me in the car rollin in the carpark. lolololololol
traumatised for life
<3

btw got my OBEY hat :D

so tired to go to work ceebbbss
still going....

2011-06-15T20:16:00.002+10:00

yay official holiday this week. kindaaaaa
i miss my kiddies already

She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
so she sets out on another misadventure just to find
she's another two years older
and she's three more steps behind

wishing i'm still who i was 2 years ago

2011-06-11T02:04:00.005+10:00

I find it wierd when someone talks about things I write on blogspot.
Yes Mish looking at u buddy

Nywho, fml took my confiscated e cig when my rents was away,
And now I'm in my room looking high and low. And i can't find it!!! Rarrararra

Sooo..I forsee .loose cannons flying
weather forecast for 2morow,
thunderstorm accompanied with rain.

This is nice, I feel nothing.

2011-06-07T22:38:00.002+10:00

achivement- ran 1000 steps up mt dandenong, and down :)
medal pls

-so rents came back. -
-gabs sing friends came over last week, model hey sexaayy ;D
but whatever, ive concluded that i would rather get a puppy, boys are jerk offfs

brain so tired, so i occupy myself with work, chill, dota, movies, out coffee, and jersey shores
finished three seasons in a week
i finished now what D=

that day, bryan's speech on the spectrum of christianity made me think alot of where my heart lies.
i'm downing this thing and i hate it.
questions, thoughts, questions
fml
fml
fml
fml

2011-05-29T12:19:00.003+10:00

so sick of love song

2011-05-28T23:19:00.001+10:00

2011-05-26T12:32:00.003+10:00

Closer to the edge

2011-05-19T06:28:00.003+10:00

so tired today i overslept in the libaray and missed half my lecture =s
soo tiredd this week, all these assignment to do

been doing my assignment all night, only mananged to just finish it,
i havent slept D=
only have half an hour left before i gotta get up to go uni.
so can't sleep, otherwise i wont get up. =/
but im soo so so so sleepppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy =[ =[ =[ =[ =[ =[ =[

2011-05-17T23:21:00.004+10:00

wow ho, bloggin everyday now i see coolies
and keeping this up.

my literacy lecturer says they are planning to combing facebook, tweeter and youtube as one in a few years time and might cann it youtweetface

HAHAHAHAH well i lol-ed in class :D

back to depressing work time =[

ps: THE PICTURE BELOW AND ON THE SIDE I STOLE FROM MISH LOH X]

2011-05-16T17:37:00.002+10:00

soooooooo, my thoughts.
i dont mind help with work or studies
but other than that, helping me means you think im weak and theres some sort of sympathy involved.
thus, i got this.
ALSO, dont get offended if 'i dont tell you things'
might be, cause u dont ask, i forgot, or its really no biggie but but but
ive come to conclude that its not like i dont want to tell you. its i dont like feeling vulnerable.

Doing the blog, facebook and assignment outside my house in the dark =[
because i forgot my keys,plus i 4got to put back the back up key
yay!

2011-05-15T17:07:00.001+10:00

Cutiesss

cant wait for this week to be over.

then dad leaving on thursday bowowyippeeaahhyippeeeayy

2011-05-14T15:51:00.002+10:00

Because ive kinda been on holidays ever since uni started, except for those assignment days.
My assignments accumulated and BOOM.

THINGS TO DOO:

Ive got to create a philosophy and develop and classroom curiculum by this tuesday
progress: 20%

write a resource folio and another essay about the tutorials from weeks 1-12 due this wednesday.
Progress: 5%

Read 10 books to different children, and write a summary about their feelings and all, talk bout the books and purpose lalalalalalla. due: this thursday
Progress: 0%

Yet im here blogging =o bowwowowow so shocedd at me
clearly not motivated yet, ive still got a couple of days

LESS TALK MORE ACTION

2011-05-08T18:41:00.002+10:00

"Give me One shot for my pain, One drag for my sorrow
Be messed up today, Ill be ok tommorow."
Liqueor Store Blues

2011-04-24T17:55:00.005+10:00

why is blogger changing my template

so im home :) long weeekendd

in my shoes, just to see,
what it's like to be me
i'll be you, lets trade shoes,
just to see what it'd b like

to feel your pain, you feel mine,
to go inside each other'd mind,
just to see what we'd find,
look at shit through each other's eyes

THURS
finally kicked my butt to find the course coodinator, who made me an exception, being on the verge of failing and all, i can still continue with my course :)

so after having that off my chest, i happily got onto the bus ready to sleep, and think about what to wear for pretty please that night

before i knew it, the metro duddes comes and asks for the concession, thus the fine =[

well, so that ruined the day, packed my bags for the days, and drove the car to blackburn shops, shhhh, cuz ying was strandard at blacky with no busses to our house. soo yeeeaa

jayson came along, left PP at like 2, then went out for more drinks at charl, got home at like 4, went in the house at like 6 coz of dsjadaskldjaskl all these problemsss. sleep

FRIDAY
woke up at 4pm, for rdyy
met jay, headed to Michelle place for pres,
headed to wonderland, about to go neverland but no more frees, so we got stuck outside,
strandard at the city cause transport system was bad, me and jay and ck decided to crash at michelle place. couldnt sleep much,

SAT
left place at 2ish, went back caulfield, sleep

SUNDAY
church, reached home

2011-04-18T19:31:00.003+10:00

o oops i meant woke up at 9 on Friday. so, trying to neVER revolve my life round jayson, already am the kinda 'bros before holes', yet i get raged for not seeing them enough dudeesss seriously where the credit for the efforts UNI UNI 20% chance im failing uni SO MUCH WORK TO DO D= whle waiting for the 4 ocolock lecture today, thought about travelling, thought about living in hotels, thought about lying at the beach with my cocktail idunno i just thought life would b more meaningful than this. just the thought of staying in school for 4 years.. maaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnn. wow i actually looked forward to going to the library today, cause then i can sleep =o then on my way home i saw those thick pole on the floor, and the very damaged car. freaked out. THURS lil scared of my cuz borrowing the car, but trust. so she gonna be my driver for a couple of days till i go home, excitemennt

2011-04-17T23:19:00.006+10:00

BRISBANE >GOLDCOAST

was AMAZIING i love it when we just go away some place with no worries, with no regrets, with freedom MANNN LETS GO AGAINN

i still cant belive i sat on these rides the second one almost broke my neck,

so painful since its been almost like a traditional to be blogging bout my fainting experiences,

i shall commence..

THURS

finished tut, went to sleep at the lib quiet desk area, and woke up 2 hours later to go find jayson who came all the way to my uni :D nawwhs

then felt the same feeling leaned then sat on the middle of the walkpath like some drugo

got up went bak to jay, he went for a medic, i felt better. went home

but this time it was different, cause i felt drained like super uber drained

came home at 2 slept till 9, ate food till 10.

woke up at 10 the next morn. 17 hours bru

FRIDAY

docs docs

the back to sleep

SAT

morn felt tired mayb coz i overdosed sleep

but then it wore off when i reached bh

wore off even more when i saw jayson, hmm

came home early and rents still had a mini rage spree

wads with people these dayyyss >=[

2011-04-02T16:36:00.005+11:00

so its saturday.. saturday.. last saturday spent:

-2 hours w ragin rents

-1 hour thinking who to live with

-called, fought with him

-1 hour, picked myself up

-decided to leave and meet jay saturday, i hate saturdays

Ladida thursday, not really good,

then j got kicked out, ruined the night,

so i left club and met him at crown. chilled. sleepy,

got home at 4. went home friday

nowsuppsoedly suppose to do assignment, but ill do it 2morow. more tv shows to watch =D

2011-03-23T17:18:00.002+11:00

just thinking how 'lucky' ive been, god's protection?
i dunno, it seems like in all those accidents, i always end up good.
wow. ammaazzzing. wow. uber WOW
which made me wonder, is that why im always so chilled? :) hmmm

anywho, driving test in 2 weeks =s
im freaking out, lifes are at risk!
i pray to god, that if im EVER in an accident, no one else but the responsible driver gets hurt.
then again, im expecting a pass, and what if i dun pass ? o.0
drop expectations noww

assignment due due due this week.
did 300 words in 3 hours.
1200 more words to go =[

just found out i failed one unit due to the shocking attendance rate, 1/5 says my lecturor. =[
sigh face

2011-03-15T22:30:00.002+11:00

Let me touch fire,
Let me burn,
thats when i'll learn,
to back off,and not to depend,
coz when ur not there,
touching fire can't compare to what's inside,
so stop trying to help me
sorry but this is just who i am

__________

I'm usually imune to those negativity my rents throw at me,
but when its pushed onto him,
the feelings inside me stir up.
i wanna BHDAKSHDASKJDNASKJDHEIUDNASKLDSa RARARAWJDASKD
but i cant.
i wanna tell him
but i cant

thank god jayson dosent know this blog =]

____________

Tryna impress this guy i like on dota with my dota skills =P
so, recently, ive been on alot.
feels like my eye sights getting worse.

nywho, so behind uni.
everything moves on so quickly,
yet when i go home i get distracted.
soo im even MORE behind.

the last time i remembered doing some quality work would b at my cuz house =/
sooo far away, tooo long ago.

SoMEONE MOTIVATTTION PUH LEASE

_________________

so, this month theres
MARCHH

-shavin's 19th city dinner
-danica's 18th house party
-aline's 18th city bar
- jaysons crown bday

PLUS x3 assignments due =/
busy busy busy busy bee be bee busy beee bee busy

2011-03-13T12:37:00.002+11:00

mum: do u have a bf
: yeh
mum: you know.. something something lalala

now that stage is over
nothing to hide, FEELS
FREE :D
i like =D =D

no uni monday

2011-03-12T03:29:00.002+11:00

Climbed a mountain and I turned around
And i saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well, the landslide brought me down

Oh mirror in the sky, What is love?
Can the child within my heart ride above?
Can I sail throught the changing ocean tides?
Can i I handle the seasons of my life?

2011-03-09T16:12:00.003+11:00

got back from ying's
suppose to go uni, but got lost in city AGAIN -.=, was about 1 hour late, so i cbbs and went home.
hate it when i forget to bring my earphones, hence the whole journey home my brain went wondereding.

-assignments due due due, so much work to do so little effort =/
-what his doing, why aint reply me
-home, movies, watch, drama download
-chest ouch
-read book
-bday prez
-bday party, wear cloths
-bday party crash.
-work, pictures photos
-black blonde, hmm
-never close, b safe then sorry
-excerise
-buy books
-h8 it when i use to try so hard in my family

P's in a month =D
EXCITEMENT FILLS THE AIR

2011-02-21T19:44:00.003+11:00

worked for the past 3 weeks :)

started first day of uni todays,
but missed my first lecture, cause i got lost in the city finding jay.. and that wasnt even the worse part
on my third lecture, it took me 15 minutes to find the classroom, to find that i was in the wrong one 10 minutes later.
Then, after searching, i bumped into a guy who told me to follow him cause we were going to the same lecture.
so i did.
The lecture was suppose to go for 2 hours, but it finished an hour early.
so after class, i asked the teacher, and found out i was in the wrong lecture. -.=
the lesson was about greek catholic.. awwwwwkwaaaarddddd.... -.=

but then i decided i had enough of today, and went back to jayson's
The end.

2011-02-10T22:06:00.003+11:00

I moved houses.. again for the 4th time
Im at Donvale come stalk me =]

On top of that Im temporarily working with my mum.. awwkkss
i love love my job

haha they all call me " Miss Sarah" not use to that yet
my fav kiddies once said they misss me, and comes up to hug me everyday
NAWWHH my heart melts instantly <3

Moving houses + working + phone time with jayjay =very very very drained

** Today i didnt even think about coke =O
until i thought about not thinking about it just then

like oh my wow i got this

its been 11 DAYS without coke SHITTANESS
i feel uber awsume right now =D

2011-01-27T12:48:00.004+11:00

wow. cbbs blogging for a while
but hello, im back :)

overseas for a month, freedom for a month, worry-free was the best feeling EVER
finishing everything, with great company, having nothing to think about, chilling with coffee equals perfect-to =]

HIGHLIGHTS OF THE TRIPP
NEW NEW STUFF

Malaysia
- crashed audrey's childhood crib
- shopped like there's no 2morow
- fainted un-glam-ly -.-
- shared so much, too much of my life story

Taiwan (4days)
-stayed in a grand hotel :)
-shopped and developed new bargaining skills
-best cool chilled weather
-nicest,friendliest people
- dipping in the jug, warmmm >< Hk ( 5days)
-crashed at peter's crib
- adapted to party night and snooze morning, shop afternoon habbit ;)
- chilled with jayjay + others
- shopoped? kinda?
- someone kissed my ring, un-romantically

Malaysia
-went to Malaka

Singapore
-hanged in tan cousin's crib
- hanged in goh crib
-hanged in grandrents crib
- si-si-sha (fruit punch x2 , mango)
- Clark Quay club
- Butter fact club
- Night-cycling
-Sentosa, lush, sit thingio up, and almost smashed worker which dodged me just in time while go karting down, so i smaked into board :) pheww
- left for dead, pew pew zombies
- visiting relatives..
- chilling with starbucks green tea latte <3

calculated the expenses over this trip. = 2 k AUD. 1K sing =/
but i would spend it all over again for this experience

working towards my
goals this year:
- return 3 k.
- get part-time job
- write up 120 hours and get P's
- save up for new car
- save up for lappy
- quit

reallyy excited for this saturday, yet freaking out buttt... i, butterflies already =/

2010-11-18T21:51:00.003+11:00

_____________________

I FINISHEHD HIGH SCHOOL FOR LIFE :D :D

best feeling ever.

this week, draining my life on watching dramas and movies and more movies

next week, is gonna b packed (Y)

week after that fly fly wooo

______________________

straight after my chink exam,

it was SIM's 18th!

WOO

well, im just not even gonna touch alchy NYMOREEE

that sums up the party :)

______________________

love my new iphone, but i love love all the people that got me the iphone even more <3

______________________

rents came back,

took some pictures with my lil cousin i was talkin about 2 years ago.

but he wasnt that cute bulldog cheeks lil boy anymore

that ruined my day

2010-11-14T23:28:00.003+11:00

sea otters hold each other hands when they sleep.
so they dont drift away from each other

cuteeeeeeee

uck being a teenager.
uck loving the people that don’t give a shit about you.

uck staying up at night thinking about someone that doesn’t care about you.

uck being led on.

uck crying over someone that broke your heart.

uck the friends that leave you once they find a boyfriend/girlfriend.

uck parents that have a go at you for everything that you do.
uck the people that have too high expectations of you.

uck the people that think you’re capable of nothing.

uck sitting at home feeling lonely.

uck feeling like there is no one that loves you.

uck seeing the people that you love change and leave you behind.

uck the people that don’t appreciate you.
uck growing up

*censored

2010-11-10T17:15:00.005+11:00

ive slacked soo much
and my slack is slack is like times 10
ive caught up with most of my tv shows
-gossip girl
-smallville
-chuck
-vampire diaries
-the modern family

and, finished 2 korean drama in 2 days
-Personal Preference <-- (this guy in there so hot )
-Dr. Champ so funny!!
catching onto another drama,
waiting for more episodes of Fugitive B to come out, Rain's in it :D
i wanna go korea,
but then again theres actually no guys like that in the real world so exagerated.
pshh

nywho, snapping back
all my major exams are over
WOOHOOO
one more and im flying awayy =D =D

VCD was the hardest thing ever,
i didnt finish, so good bye atar 85

ill properly get over it after exams,
and PARTY HARD (Y)

ying finishes exam same day as me, =]
and my other cousin's coming from brisbane,
woohooo now i just cant concentrate

my brain thinks,
the reason house have my back is cause
they are afraid of jeopardising their daily routine
afraid of loosing the face
forced?
shudap brain,
no wait, leave after chink exam

parents free for a week (Y)
damn, no one to kick my butt =[

2010-11-03T15:20:00.002+11:00

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over it (Y)

2010-10-23T21:29:00.007+11:00

1. I graduated from year 12! woooo
"there sarah, ahh sarah goh, SARAH, go change your black socks, take out your collar, spit out your gum, and why are u so late?"
[o.0] missssss........
(and yes, she said that all at once)
had to go through all that school uniform crap before i got to get my year 12 certifcate
woott woott!

2. Had my valedictory dinenr last week,
it was sweet... nice way to end year 12

memorable conversation with the principle.
P- "hey girls, i'm going!"
ME- smiles at principle " BYEE! " :)
P- walks around, and sits opposite me
ME- thinkss.... damn! he said "hows it going girls"

memorable conversation with the hot bouncer
too hot to quote

3. Been studying hardcore
my cousin told me theres this equation:

( ? x )naturally smart + ? x amount of effort + ? x amount of time = results

so, in my case, just gotta buck up the effort and time by alot (Y)
good luck to me

IM SOO GEE GEEEEEE
exams next weekk
stuff english, who needs english

standing there yesterday night, i wished for time to take a break.
but boom, earth stepped in.

2010-10-13T16:21:00.002+11:00

all these people reminiscene-ing, and im like WOO
school officially ends 2morroow =D

got my diary out and counted
year 7 = x4 days detentions, x3 days coodinator detention, x1 day late
year 8 =x2 days detention, x1 day late
year 9 =x7 detention, x7 days late
year 10 = ripped all my pages so that means none, zero
year 11 = ripped all my pages so that also means none, zero
year 12 = x1 day detention, x6 days late

detention= 14
late= 15
external/internal suspension =lost count of how many days =/

yeah, even thou im a good student in school,
i break a somee rules in school.

but DANG WADA waste of time..

yeh, so this is how i get distracted,
like i wanted to do hw last week, then my room was messy, so i cleaned it..
sat back on my chair rdy to work,
and then saw my jacket on my floor, so i went to put it back in my closset
but my closset was messy, so i went to clean it.
after that i felt tired, so i went to sleep.
ZERO PROGRESS

2010-10-10T01:25:00.001+11:00

thats was me 10 years ago
sweetest bday message ever :)

"I MUST SEND YOU A BIRTHDAY MSGG COS I"M YOUR COUSIN AND I MUST BEAT ALL YOUR FRENS WHO ONLY POST HAPPY BIRTHDAY ON YOUR WALL!

HELLO! happy birthday okay!be happy. wow time flies. you old now. im worse. i shall not go on to say how you were when you were younger eating toothpaste on lollipop or chasing after the ice cream man without shoes or cycling and walking the dog around your estate or making rockets that can hardly fly or talking bad about XXXXXXXXXXX hhahahahah or midnight pillow talk at our house or exchanging stickers or playing with our bi sai. HAHHAHAA. have a great birthday sweetheart!.

love,your cousin mei chin! "

2010-09-27T19:45:00.001+10:00

well, epic fail plan -.-

didnt do 80% of what i said i was gonna do
suppose to b studying today, but i tots wasnt motivated

sup d, i think im falling sick
looks, look back to lap
ddddd, my boobs hurt
looks up, how come?

MON ?? work
TUE bh lib, glen, aud' bday
WED ?? work
THUR shoppo with audrey, angie's 18th
FRI bh study sesh, ???

SAT died
[ had to wait the whole day for panadol, worse day, i should stash some in my closset]
SUN church, my house 1/4 study
____________

MON did nOTHINNGG
TUE ? lunch with ying
WED ?
THUR ?
FRI ?

SAT ?
SUN ?

highlight of the holidays,
havent coked in 3 days 4 hours 46 minutes
A RECORD in a while :)
and im not moody, im not emoing, im just me =0

2010-09-16T20:01:00.002+10:00

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and it's effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along

OVER MY HEAD,
THE FRAY

just did a 3 hours english practise essay,
well, i finished it, so thats good (Y)

i've only got 2 periods 2molo
so yeh its basically the holidays for me :)

NEXT WEEK
imma gonna plan ahead.

FIRST WEEK
MONDAY sleep, slack, go runn,, revise psychology
TUESDAY audreys day, go run, sleep, revise psychology
WEDNESDAY revise psychology, run, revise psychology, work
THURSDAY ying's day, in city, monash lib study study study
FRIDAY still in city, study study study

SAT dunno
SUN dunno

=D

2010-09-14T18:46:00.002+10:00

sta-sta-stuuufff schoolll
im so over it

>=[

I WANNA GOO OUTTT RIGHT NA NA NA NOW

2010-09-11T22:12:00.006+10:00

this whole week haave been uber crazy

i remember last time my vcd folio was due
i said to myeself, ok i wont leave it to the last minute,
and -.- GG

SO, MONDAY- stayed bak in school to 6 did folio
TUESDAY - went home did folio till 12
WEDNESDAY -missed school to study for CHINK SAC, then CHINK SAC at 2:30, stayed bak in school till 7
THURSDAY- stayed at school to study for further SAC, then Further SAC after school, went home do folio, and get this......... did folio till 6 in the MORNING, wen to sleep
FRIDAY- woke up at 9, missed whole day of school, did foilio till 2, stayed back in school, hand in folio at 4

man, i actually felt lilke my body was gonna die, but then i saw asher :)

SAT- had to wake up early for tuition, soo while rushing out the house, i lost my earing, and guess what, i stepped on it, the thick bit of my heel got pierced.
Too bad i had this refelx that pulled it out so fast, if not i would have taken a picture =]

THENNN
went to koonung, and caught a bus to ringwood, wherever that was, and after 20minutes of travelling the wrong way, i then realise i was on the wrong bus -.=
SOO had to catch other bus bak to boxhill.

mann gg that

on top of everything,
the fact that a bit of my iphone touch dosent work kills me the most
RARARARARARAR

2010-09-06T18:53:00.000+10:00

ګ ♥ګaRAH

2010-08-23T22:32:00.002+10:00

purpose and reason in life...............

2010-08-22T20:11:00.002+10:00

3 more week till end of TERM 3
=/ =/ =/ =/ =/ =/ =/ =/

OH EM GEE
Ive done lesser work this term than last term
shooott mee noww

ps: never ever get money off parents in future, EVER

My tears run down like razerblade
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed

And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do
But now it's over, it's over, why is it overr??
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, its over, its over, it cant be over
I wish that i could take it back

But it's over

I loose myself in these fight
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry its shaking from the pain that's in my head
i just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life i led
but i wont let it die, but i wont let it die

2010-08-18T21:27:00.002+10:00

when im too high you keep me grounded,
when im stuck on the ground, you take my mind somewhere FAR FROM HEREEE

omg those messages >=[
its like eee-bor all over again

2010-08-16T23:03:00.002+10:00

Havent been myself since friday,
and it was cause i was in PAINNN >=[
like really, i tot it was period but it wasnt, haha ew
but its all good now

SAT
so bad, i had to catch tram from Balwyn at 1 while it poured,
and tram from bh to nunnwading cause my stupid friend wanted me to go with him -.='
then bus from nunwading to shoppo, then from shoppo bus home..
so in the midst of dying and finally reaching home, i had to go to work.
i told jared i didnt wanna go, and being a sweet lil bro he was, he did it for me, and in exchange of his nice-ness, i decided to mow the lawn for him, which he was supposed to do...
IN PAINN, worse day ever
shoved like 20 pills of all sorts down my throat, gotta get pumped for Melbourne U open day

SUN
so sunday, got up and was fully energetic to be asian like :)
worse weather ever
shoved more pills, for sac on Monday

MON
English SAC, i was so ggedd
but i reckon ill do better than a D, like last time =/
cauuse i decided on a prompt, and went with it :D

Lappy battery dying
to sum everything up

everyones becoming onions,
they keeping peeling, un-reavealing a bit that waters my eye

2010-08-12T22:12:00.002+10:00

over pmsing :)

hello

hmm.. facebooking, watching hell's kitchen, blogging..
i see, my sister so hardworking, good job to her

Im excited, cause i get to see bffl 2molo =D

2010-08-08T23:34:00.003+10:00

just came back from INCEPTION
and my brain is about to burst from the movie

nywho, right now i feel so betrayed
>=[

stuff the blogging every day thing,
i'm PMS-ING
and dissapearing into thin air
BYE

2010-08-07T22:26:00.002+10:00

well, didnt get to mantain my everyday blog,
cause my computer internet crashed
gotta use my dad's laptop now =[

so if i dont reply anything on msn or whatever, u know why
OH i can still facebook thou :)
so anything inbox me

funny how i occasionally have failure to retrieve memory
but the more i try to forget the more i remember.
he became a scar in me.
how do u remove a scar anyway?

hmm

2010-08-04T12:58:00.002+10:00

ay, trying to b a friend to know whats happening in ur life yet u cbbs blogging
i like jasmine, u blog often

HENCE, <--( good word to use in an essay )
Ima be computer freak,
ima try bloging everyday :)

came home early todays,
P4 off
P5,6 VCD, my work was in the comp, so didnt think i should waste my time in class but go home to do vcd work.

this isnt wagging -_-
compared to those other times where i just left cause i ceebs with school.
to conclude,
very nicee..... sarah
sarah : thanks man =D

2010-08-03T13:27:00.002+10:00

period 5 and 6 off!
thus im here :)

so mid years reuslt came back
thought i would get use to my usual marks by now,
but it's wasn't what i wanted, damn it,,
studied like a motherfou, and the fact that i onli had 1 exam.. DJSAIDJEI
why aim so high to get crush..?

i dont see myself gettin the ATAR i want
80 is tad hard to reach.
WHATEVER life goes on...

6 more weeks left :)

2010-07-29T21:57:00.003+10:00

Last week, OMG
it's been a while but
it was the first day in a month since i spilled water in my bag.
it was okay cause i had my jumper in there and most of the water got soaked up

next day, spilled water again..
now this time, most of my text book soaked, and notepad just became not for use cause its all soaked and ulgy.

THEN, the water bottle spilled again and flooded my entire bag, plus phone and ipod..
half of me died when they werent working, but i managed to revive my phone, but sad to say my ipod electricuted. . (i could hear it full sok tian-ing inside)

and just when i thought everything was over for the week
i just had to spill coffee all over the table. and soaked some pages of my VCD folder and documents from the childcare. SIGH

and the worse thing was, everthing happened in the SAME WEEK! >=[

2010-07-29T21:56:00.002+10:00

i change my mind
tumblr's gay, and laggy

so hello,
im back :)

2010-07-05T20:30:00.002+10:00

I've officially moved to tumblr :)
I've officially moved to tumblr :)
I've officially moved to tumblr :)
I've officially moved to tumblr :)

2010-06-15T21:24:00.002+10:00

school.
so much work

life.
looking forward towards the 25th of June :)

"There will always be an 'end' in friendship,
a 'lie' in believe, an 'over' in lover and an 'if' in life.."

2010-06-10T14:35:00.003+10:00

Finished the G.A.T
not really.
pretty much drew a few pictures,
did patterns shading the multiple questions,
and left 1 and half hour early.

last,week,
this week
so werid..
studying in my room before exams ye
and mum came in with a big smile, and offers me hot dirnks,
gives me a bubble gum [o.0]
then sometimes
when dad will comes home, sees me studying on the dinning table
he smiles and somehow talk to me like ive done something really wow
like PUH lease, adsiive you've never seen me studying before -_-''

but but but
I HAVE SEVEN FREE TICKEtS TO BUBBLEE :D
anyone anyone????

2010-06-09T12:35:00.003+10:00

the sun shinning
the music's booming
AND
I CAN BREATHE :)

biggest WOW FACTOR
studied from 9morning - 11:30 night
but minus 2 hours break

man this week actually will total up to all of last year's of studying

i was stuck on this
question about and rows and columns.
i didnt know which was which
so i 50-50
=[

luckily there was nothing about am and pm
if not more marks gone

im cookin dinner tonight :)
and i'm hoping that green potatoes arent posionous

2010-06-07T23:23:00.004+10:00

Psychology exam
in less than 30 hours, i think
its wednesday..

LETS
ACE
THIS
SHIT
HARD

not aiming too high,
just incase
cause theres no room for letdowns

i shall buy myself a sexy everlast bag,
if i do good.
not asian but
aussie standard

2010-06-05T21:46:00.002+10:00

6.5 study time

+1 hour- car accident
+2 hour - tv
+1 hour - stonning on computer :)

= 4 hours break total

more progressive than i thought (y)

2010-06-01T19:53:00.004+10:00

These days have been full hectic

monday.
- further SAC
- VCD - everything due. folio outcome 1 [5 o'clock]

tuesday.
- english SAC

so before monday. preparation of VCD foilio.
from..
saturday 7night.- 1night
sunday. 9morning- 6night
doing photoshop updates on the computer =[
my eyes were about to pop out
MONDAY
didnt even get a chance to study for my further, so,i failed the SAC for sure!
thinking that at least the time i spent, ill at least get an A for VCD
but the thing is " I didnt get to hand in a major piece of the foilio" =[ =[
crushed my day.
stayed back and handed the stuff that i managed to do at [5 30]
then i had to go and work
SIGH

TUESDAY
todays, suppose to wake up at 6 to study for english SAC
but i snoozed so many times, i woke up at 8 :(
THEN, SAC at
[3:30 - 5:30]
got the prompt, was indecisive on a prompt
started planning. ended up planning 2 prompts
wheni looked at the time, i only had half an hour left
didnt even finish my essay,
furthermore, the grammer structure is shocking
bombed it BADDD

OMG SOMEONE KILL ME,
how worse can this week GET

exams next week, and i havent touch my books at all
seriously wad have i been doing, that time flies so fastttttttt

2010-05-24T21:17:00.002+10:00

i feel like this angry little men >=X

falling in this continious cycle
stage 1 - at school ("omg feeling guilty,so much work to do, OK must go home and study!!!")
[ motivated, shown in the diary, writen alota homework ]

stage 2 - at childcare ( " ok, lets do this" opens diary set up table..)
[ need music take out itouch, but faceboook, but bejwelled first 5minute, 10 minute. 1 hour ..]
stage 3 - at home ("o crap did nothing today! ok! ill take out books" study abit, ipod dieing
[must recharge ipod, turn on computer, and here i am =/ ]
stage 4 - sleep (" shit, did nothing today, ok 2morow!!" )

then back to stage 1

so theres this girl who i assumed took angie's usb
and i feel like raging her face for not telling the truth
breathe~ breathe~

yes this agro is getting to me

go so much work to do
gg gg gg gg
at the moment, stage 3

谢谢. 不过你可以放手了

2010-05-18T22:45:00.005+10:00

like FML to the MAX
seriosly.
someone PLLSS snatch me from this place and ill be ur best friend for life

exam. exam. exam
sigh

and in this "filled" house,
it is water with water

ha
funny =D
"you look pretty today...ugh was i ugly yesterday?.." facebook .

2010-05-08T22:09:00.006+10:00

got distracted saw this picture and boom
memories.

i remember
-running up this street and around this whole area that stretched so far, at night
with my 2 cousins and gabb
-launching rockets in the park
-chasing my dog cause he ran out the house
-being crushed when my fish, turtle, n hamster died afterwards had to leave my dogs
- coming back here after we sold the house and standing outisde, just gazing
- sneaking out at night to sherena's place, and comin back soaked, fell in the pool
- being so excited, literally,.. to watch tv
- caught a bus at 7 and got lost, and a granny helped me :)
- wishing away when i was alone at the playgrounds
-running up stairs evertime i forgot something. -__- sucked
-jumped a stair and landed on my lip
-getting every1 not to talk to this friend cause she didnt gimme something
( wad was i thinking??? )

WHYY my primary school was remodelled =[
BOOOO
[see that highest window on the red block]
[its haunteedd. =O, serious..]
theres 2 class there, and 2 toilets

eeeerrryyyy

ENG SAC tuesdayyyy

CHINK SAC thursdayy

scarraaaayy

Back to reality

it sucks

and my bra and bro gets it easy.

2010-05-08T00:24:00.004+10:00

Imagine ..

if only i could stroll down this street :)

its may
ITS MAYY
MAY, JUNE, JULY ,AUGUST
predicting within these 4 months the day will come
where i wont have my fav blanky so snuggle in :(
im adi trynna save moneyy for supplies =/

i smiled

2010-05-02T16:20:00.003+10:00

post 92
im selfish
because im greedy
because i do stupid things without consideration
because i would rather take shortcuts then going the full
because i lean too much on others
because i share too much burden with others
because i strive to die first before anyone else i know do
because im sarah goh, and its burning in me

ouch the truth bites

so if u read this post, and if you know me
unlucky you

1.5.2010
my last chance to get it right

2010-04-25T22:38:00.006+10:00

I FOUND MY vcD FOLDER :)
there was panic
but there was a part of me was like "no wayy surely i did not loose it"
[like its so not me, like i know i always seem to loose alota things, but i always find it in a few weeks, maybe months later.]
just like when i mis-placed my yellow ipod, i wasnt dramatically upset
infact ..
i still think one day soon,
when we move houses, im gonna be like" OMG i found my ipod"

clearly, this little stressor of that week helped me,
tooo..... write my name on the FOLDER!
>=X

2 weeks flew by so quickly
my hearts thumping now, head stonned.
also because franny and i dnm till three last night :D
so ima gonna sleep and hope that therre would not b any scolding todays =[

i hate him
i hate him so much
i wanna go back in time
and take back all our memories
or take a pill and forget everything

can we pretend that aeroplanes
in the night sky are like shooting stars
i could really use a wish right now

Ok lets pretend like this never happened

Like I never used to runaway into the blackness
Now lets pretend like it was all-good
Like I didn’t live starring in a notebook
Like I did the things I probably knew I should
So let’s just pretend and make wishes out of airplanes

B.o.B aeroplanes ft hayley williams and eminem

2010-04-18T20:54:00.005+10:00

some lame-o neighbour been trying to connect to my internet, hence the constant disconnection
how irritating!

so its been a a 12 days since my parents went,
instead, im feleing so free, i feel like can run out naked =D
ew. never
but similarily, in a way i feel so free , so chained off

until friday
the biggest stressor ever,
my fault.

sigh sigh

i literally have no energy boost for school at all.
ZERO
like seriously, y cant we all be like monkeys and live without the pressure of society judging us and setting a constant elevating standard of intelligence.
i wish i didnt have to finish year 12.
i wished i was brave enough to drop out of school when my dad suggested it in year 10,
now. ive already wasted year 11. and year 12 is gonna fade away, again.
i wanna go live on the streets and be a hobo :)
wooooo

then again,
thank god for parents,
otherwise, if i had to shape myself,
i see myself in the past 2 years, in the streets, makeing an illegal living, homeless,
so thank you =D

now you wanna say that it ain't worth stayin
you wanna run but you're hesistating
im talking to me

2010-04-13T20:02:00.002+10:00

EFFF EMM ELLL

G_G

on the other hand
i speed-ed todays
i drove today, and went on 65km when it was 40km
and i told my drived instructor and he was like =O !
:"no wayyy"
and im like yes. tut tut tut to me

luckily i have a talkative driver, no awakard silence in the car, so its all good.
but his good, even when his drinking ginger beer or coffee, he stoped me from crashing (Y)
NICE

drove
3 hours in total already =D
how exciting!

then again
my power ups for studying is almost empty =[
should i on thursday? or should i not?
hmmmmmmmm

hhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

so much work
so little motivation
so much ceeebbbss
so little time
so all my fault

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2010-04-10T20:43:00.002+10:00

This is über cool, I'm blogging on my itouch =D

So back from mo camp
According to franny, only slept for 13 hours within 3 days
Well Biggest record for me..

Camp.
Well I never expected god to be so real in my life
And now that I think about it, after all those dinner times Praying for safety/protection
Really matters
It just hit me, that all those times where I came across stumbling upon a moving car, it always just so happen that I'm up and still alive
Or even when ive fallen, based on by stupid choices, he always comes as my super hero to get me back up on my feet

Behind the scenes
Well I kinds forgot to mention this during testimony
That, at the midst of listening to other people, there was this buzz that made my heart rise n legs shake pushing me to go up n tell my experience. So I said to god if it was that good of a story, n if u really really wan me to go up. Then mayb I need an obvious sign. And I'll do it since I owe u that much .
And wad do u know, few minutes later, I see paul more specifically audrey pushing me to go up. So there the real ending of that story

Bck and already facing the bad side of me,
To make things worse my parents r gone for 2 long week
Bur im Trying really
Maybe not straight away, but getting there slowly ..

10 mossyy, 3 on my face
Looks like pimples :(
Sigh

Friday
Got home at 5, slept at 5:10
Woke up at 9night
Slept at 11night
(so three hours there)

Then from 11. Woke up at 1noon
(12 hours there)
I would have slept more if didn't have to g to work
Niceeeee

2010-04-05T22:29:00.002+10:00

easter weekend was hmmm.. goOOD :)
thankkk u for lettin me crash at ur's ying! <3

but I'm officially
broke broke broke to the max

- first pay = leather jacket
- second pay = my stuff + bdays
- third pay = CQ + element
- fourth pay = i touch ( still owing ) =[

wheresss the monneyyy??
camp 2molo. packing sooon, after unpacking my other bag.

2010-03-29T12:13:00.003+11:00

so fast, snap, boom
term 1, formal, kevin's 18th
all over

and one week of plain nothing
well 5 days till my cousin' =]

Imabe driving in 2 hours
how exciting.
crossing my fingers for no cars

2010-03-16T21:39:00.002+11:00

i have a sac 2molo and im cant get off bejwelled =/

nywho, the loud music at ruffy lake got me walkin there,
went throught the crowd to get to the front,
and realised the people on the stage were indian,
then looked around me and all indyy
and also indian music =O
and i quickly ran home

embarrassinnggg muchh ><

next weekkk :D
and im FREEE
kinda
ok not really.
but holidays =D

2010-03-14T18:54:00.002+11:00

just that day
when i felt like i was walking backwards
and in that desperate time
my phone was no use to me
so, i just waited for me to become sober
and walked home

sometimes, i feel like theres so many numbers in my phone,
but theres so little people i can really call in times of trouble.

mental Note: no touchy that stuff no more

i need a hOLIDAYY nOW NOW NOW

2010-03-01T22:18:00.002+11:00

caught the sneeze saturday
tanked it on saturday, went to bh
then tanked it on sunday, went to shoppo
then tanked it at school todays
i feel power!

6 panadols in 3 days
i think i took too much?
the more the faster nywaiis

bought heels from $110 to $30!!
plus that was the lasy day of sale
i knew it!
that store tods was speaking to me..

i dont care im gonna wear my heels
and be as tall as i wannt for once
=D BAHAH
im hopping i wouldnt fall and OOPS =s

soo i think my left eyes suddenly became lazy
i look like -> o.O
slightly

25 days ><
lalallalalalalla

2010-02-20T22:56:00.002+11:00

the best moment..
chilling at the city at that chocolate shop with a nice view of green grass.
with a cup of coconut chocolate on one hand and .

on the other

had to walk to shoppo at 7 30 in morning, o.0

and in a dresss, how uncomfortable

broke my toenail =[
broke my 'thing' for not me working for my parents..
sigh
lost my IPOD =[ =[ =[

went to fix my camera

accidently cut the finger
while accidentally chopping the entire fringe
i feel so bold
and i look like a duck now =[

something shiny
formal in a month-ish time

thaNK GOD
ok

2010-02-09T19:35:00.002+11:00

i h8 fridayyyss
cause no free periods =[

year 12..
making me feel so russian roulette right now now now

2010-01-31T15:23:00.003+11:00

school starts tommorow
school starts tommorow
school starts tommorow
school starts tommorow
school starts tommorow

franny's not here not awsume and deff's not cool =]

2010-01-24T20:29:00.002+11:00

yes, i've already unpacked that brain from the dusty box.

why are you everywhere?
i see you on my book, name of a doctor place, tv,
i think..
but then i see you walking on that street,
my leg heart stoped,
my leg wobbled and my eyes clicked onto yours.
sigh

if Sarah Goh met Sarah Goh,
they would become nemeisis for life..

maybe if i punched the wall and made a hole,
ill get what i want too

>= x

2010-01-19T23:42:00.002+11:00

i reformated my computer, its now a Windows 7. =]
its the high class.
cept, theres no sound, its taking up more space and dota dont work.

SIGH..

This week, is specially named "the goh study week"
I actually planned to study on Monday, which i did at like 2, the night
cause i suddenly, like suddenly felt scared that i was turning dumb,
so i jumped up of bed and started reading english notes

Im sending a threat to myself,
if i dont do well this year,
IM noT goinG overSEAAS =[
but then agian , threathning myself dont work,
so im getting my dad to threathen me :)

add moree powerr in me
bwhahaha

sleep now
cause no DOTA =[
and ceeebbss studying

cant concentrate at home
study group anyone? o.0

2010-01-11T19:43:00.000+11:00

Just watching..

2010-01-08T19:40:00.001+11:00

When violet eyes get brighter
and heavy wings grow lighter
ill taste the sky and feel alive again

2010-01-07T22:19:00.008+11:00

G_G my weak legs, hurry up and heal i needa go gym 2molo

MUST WATCHH

=[
how touchhing

2010-01-05T18:23:00.005+11:00

and when becomes LEGAL -

Im-a grab 7 girlies and 3 guyies to go on a unforgettable holiday with me =]

And a genie is granting me unlimited cash in my bank account just for this trip.

On the first day we’re immediately hopping onto a private plane that would take us to Japan, then we’ll go shopping, everything is my shout of course =]

No need to rush into our brand new Tokyo Drift cars that we each hand picked for ourselves.

And YES! We’re gonna go down to that place where we booked that empty land to try out our drifting skills. We’ll deff’s go clubbing and rent out a 5 star hotel with our very own indoor spa and outdoor rooftop.

Then, we’re gonna go down to MIAMII where pwetty beaches are, order some cocktails and martini and lie under the sun.maybe bump into Michael Western Notice while he does his filming of Burn Notice there. WOOOO <3>

When we get his autograph we're back on our plane and off to Taiwan,

a place where chinese drama comes to life o.0
then we'll visit their exciting amusement park, BUNGY jumping Sky diving =O
the thought of it *shivers, but i still want =D
and chill.. of course at night ^^

In every trip buy loads souvenirs like LOADS, hire bodyguards and them people to carry stuff Give money to needy random’s, donate billions to charity till there’s no need for charities anymore. We gotta travel in style, when your uber rich, limo hummer, is low man. We gotta travel in private jets =D

Unless we just wanna walk, I dont mind..

No time for rest, gotta get to Disneyland, Movieworld, HollyWood,

VEGAS (exceptional since im rich) HonkKong, Korea, Hawaii, saving Paris, Taiwan, India (not a place for holiday but ..) and lastly Singapore/Malaysia. In Singapore/Malaysia buy a mansion for aunties and uncles, and spoil their kids with sweet materials. aunty Sarah Goh :D AWW

well this totally made my day =]

bwhahhaaa

well im still jobless

theres a MSAAIVE lizzard outside my house, no camera to take picture =[

♥ګaRAH

2010-01-01T16:27:00.009+11:00

2009 a shittiest dark shitty sucky year
but thank god its gone :)

so the
year 2010
begins...
planned to hardcore study
planned to be smarter
planned to be a better me
planned to delete dota
planned to have study buddies
planned to not have parties unless its an 18 bday XD
planned to GG my social life
and more planning to go

but for now,
"the leash loosens abit"
robs

2009-12-17T22:38:00.002+11:00

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2009-12-16T21:59:00.002+11:00

Time is free, but its priceless.
You cant own it, but you can use it
You can't keep it, but you can spend it
Once you've lost it you can never get it back

i wish things were still the same before

i know im the black one, but
why explode ur favoritism in my face?
I'm not Anita and I'm not her, I'm me,
I'm SaraH Goh, Yi Hui
Im Sarah, ur...
i think again, maybe 2molo's different
maybe just cause its a new day

saRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH >=]

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